If you could understand

I was fragile when I met you, I was vulnerable when I met you. You were everything that I wanted but nothing I needed. I wanted you to love me, I wanted to be "that" girl to you, but I came to the realization that it just wasn't going to be. I cooked, I cleaned, I ignored my intuition with the hope that it would pay off. I was there for you, I cared for you, I was in love with you. I even allowed myself to accept things that I never would have for anyone else, but for you it wasn't a second thought. You did me so wrong. I loved you. I waited for the love that I gave to be returned. But it was no where around. I even would scribble my name and yours thinking that if I stuck it out long enough you would see how I was there. But you never did. All I got was a half ass apology that you were "sorry" My heart was broken, it healed but only due to time, not because you did anything to fix it. Now it is cold, hard and abused. So time went by and you were gone. I managed to ignore your attempts back into my life. But here you are again. Do you really think that I am going to allow this? My heart can tell that you are near, but I am not that stupid. If you could only understand.